Can’t Live Like This

I used to live with a hoarder.... The house was disgusting.. It smelled disgusting.. The air felt disgusting.. You couldn't have a shower without feeling dirty immediately after getting out.. The air felt so thick in your lungs.. Like you could feel how dirty it was just by breathing. I was constantly wanting to cover…

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Email to My Mental Health Counselor

I'm so Fucking tired.. But I'm so paranoid that I cannot fall asleep. I'm still scared he's going to show up at my mom's, though I know he's not that stupid.. Or maybe he is.. I don't know what to do. I was home alone all evening. Anxiety was eating me alive from the inside…

Email to My Mental Health Counselor

Hey, Brent. I was just sitting here watching Bob's Burgers and messaging Brandon when David messaged me again. My heart rate instantly went up and I felt my blood run cold and all he said was "Richelle" Even just that freaked me the hell out. I wonder how much more before it's considered harassment? I…

Email to My Mental Health Counselor

Hey, Brent.. I have never wanted to be out of Saskatoon so damn bad. I want to go home.... I'm scared. I cried myself to sleep last night.. Not that I don't every other night already.. But last night I was scared and fell asleep almost instantly rather than staying awake for hours crying.. I…

Well.... A conversation on kik has caused some deep feelings.. Doesn't help I've been depressed since mid March.. Its my fault for bringing it up. So, uh..... I'm talking to this guy on kik about thunderstorms which struck a nerve.. I should have changed the subject but I didn't.. Instead I decided to dwell on…

Dye and trim

I FINALLY did something for myself. I feels great, I look great, i look and feel sexy. I honestly feel less depressed!! They weren't lying when they said to do things for yourself. 🙂 🙂

Nightmare

I had a horrible dream last night that woke me up in a cold sweat and had me crying so hard I couldn't breathe.  I had a dream that Vincent was in elementary school and being made fun of for his lip. The other kids didn't want to play with him because they didn't want…

I’m A Wreck

Back to being a wreck, haha. I'm failing my math class HARDDDD!! Like, I don't understand any of this crap, I do English, History, and Psychology.. Not numbers.. Unfortunately, I need it to finish my grade twelve, but it looks like I'm never going to get there, haha. Oh god. Well, this sucks. I guess…

CIO Method

Okay, I am in this group of mom's on Facebook who LOVE to bash other mom's it's hilarious because the admins all act like they're thirteen. If ONE person doesn't agree with their opinions, they tag ALL of the other admins in the comments and they gang up on that one person, it's ridiculous!! Anyhow,…